10188087f5dec81fa1fcc88b15b9f7f5My 15 year old self patted my present self on the back when I got asked out for dinner by the lead of a popular band from the 90’s. It had come completely out of the blue and as a complete surprise. We’d only met briefly and when I received a friend request from him on facebook I just thought it was his manager doing promotion. To be honest I don’t really date musicians (high flying musicians). My instinct tells me that they’d be a total nightmare. Always on the road. Drinking. Drugs. Chasing women. Yes the stereotype puts me off. However, I wasn’t going to let my own prejudice get in the way of a potentially rewarding date with a handsome man who plays guitar. So of course when I was asked to dinner my 15 year old self told me to go for it. So I did.


We sat at the sushi bar and he took charge and ordered… ‘oh I love sushi!’ he exclaimed… ‘I’ve been to Japan many times… we had a big fan base there…’ he’d certainly had an interesting life. And was certainly charming, charismatic and all those things. But the topic turned.. to ex partners. I’m certainly wary of talking about ex’s on the first, second, third or even any of the dates I go on! But you can tell a lot about a person by the way they speak about their last dating escapades. I dipped my salmon and avocado roll into a bit of wasabi… and put it in my mouth. ‘So yes, I have a child with my ex partner and a child with a recent woman I was sleeping with for a couple of months’ I started to choke. ‘Too much Wasabi?’ he smiled at me. I slurped some water.. and replied….‘er yes’ I said…. ‘erm… So…you’re a bit like Bob Marley then…’ I smiled… ‘with your many children with different mothers’ I queried nonchalantly. I saw a hedonistic glint in his eye. He smiled devilishly and chuckled to himself ‘Yes why does that put you off…’ he looked me deep in the eye and grinned. I’m sure I saw a flicker of fire… but perhaps it was just the reflection of someone striking a match as they lit a cigarette behind us. I saw a future vision of myself standing in the doorway of a council flat pregnant and broke shaking my fist as he scuttled off in to the distance with his guitar on his back. Yes I said to myself. Yes it does.

A few days later I went into Poundland – I can’t remember what for. I was amazed to find some CD’s by some of my favourite musicians in there. Pink Floyd.. Lily Allen.. I saw his. I took a picture and texted it to him. “Look what I just found in Poundland!”  I wrote.  And that.. was the end of that.


And in other news! The alternative stage for the Reading and Leeds Festival has been announced.. which is on on the August Bank Holiday weekend – 23rd to the 25th..

What’s standing out for me is the film about Snoop Dog – entitled Reincarnated which traces his life and career and follows him on a journey of spiritual reawakening, eventually resulting in his reincarnation as Snoop Lion.  Makes me want to go to Jamaica.  And also my favourite new band Haim will be helping out club night Propaganda with an audio visual extravaganza.

Also performing:

Russell Kane * Seann Walsh (L) * Rob Delaney * Mark Thomas (L) * Shappi Khorsandi (R)

Josh Widdicombe * Paul Chowdhry * Trevor Noah * Jamie Kilstein

 Carl Donnelly’s National Novelty Dance Off Finals * Nathan Caton * Jarred Christmas (L)

 Andrew O’Neill * Joel Dommett * Katherine Ryan * Idiots of Ants * Tiffany Stevenson

Romesh Ranganathan (L) * Tom Deacon (R) * Ellis James * Rob Beckett *

Lucy Beaumont (L) * Luisa Omielan * Suzi Ruffell * Mark Simmons

Daniel Townes (R) * Jim Smallman (L) * Andrew Ryan


MC DOOM * Shlomo & The Lip Factory * Jeffrey Lewis & The Rain * Reeps One 

Transgressive * Rebel Bingo (L) * Boogaloo Stu (L)

Buttoned Down Disco (R) * Propaganda with special guests Haim

Snoop Lion: Reincarnated (Film)


(L) Leeds only, (R) Reading only

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Becki Bxx



I’m not really one for talking about my dating escapades. Online. Kinda personal stuff isn’t it? However.. with a few disastrous dates behind me – I’ve been reflecting recently on the kind of men I seem to attract. So I thought I’d do bit of a blog on them. Not all of them at once though. Also. I’ve just watched Girls and to be fair perhaps I need to ditch a bit of this British prudism I seem to be carrying around. Also my mate said it would be funny so here goes.

Let’s talk about MAN NUMBER ONE. In this instant… I’ll call him Louis. Oh Louis..

I met this guy… on NYE. He was (or is cos he’s not dead) a little older than I.. he’d studied at Oxford (sexy no?) and looked just like Louis Theroux (hence the nickname). So after a few smiles and teasing a coffee that would turn into dinner was booked in to the diary. We met up a few times…as friends, but there was an underlying attraction. We met up for coffee one evening…and I’m not really sure what led me to ask this question… but the words just spilled out of my mouth.. ‘So…have you ever slept with a prostitute?’. ‘Yeah’ he bluntly replied.

Very honest. I was shocked. I hadn’t actually had a man be so brutally and directly honest with me.

‘What? Really?! How many!?’… I enquired…with my mouth a little agape at this point.  ‘Oh loads. Probably hundreds.. when I was living in the middle east.. it was more like girls who hung around and it wasn’t like giving them money directly they just hung about and we’d give them cash to buy things. But I got Gonorrhoea and that freaked me out so I came back’.

Wow. I was a little taken aback. At the sheer honesty. Grateful though. However…my brain had just taken him out of my ‘potential’ compartment and swiftly put him in the ‘no go’ area.  Which was a shame. But ya know. But saying that – we were only friends though right? And maybe I’d got it all wrong and he wasn’t interested in me at all. We sat uncomfortably opposite each other…’I kinda wish I hadn’t told you that…’ he said.

A few weeks later I got the text. The booty call text… it was late…he was drunk…  ‘wanna get a taxi to mine?’.

There’s open minded and then there’s.. open minded. Ya get me?

Oh Louis…Louis Louis Louis…oh dear…

ART NEWS: Date for the diary – Ben Oakley Gallery presents new works by David Bray and Mark Powell… 16th – 26th May

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MUSIC: Listen to CRYSTAL FIGHTERS ‘CAVE RAVE’ album sampler HERE which will be released on the 27th May:

FREE DOWNLOAD You & I (Gigamesh remix):

Have a good day. BeckiXx

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